I’m fucked up. I have lots of problems. I have chronic eye pain and headaches, I’m depressed, I’m anxious, I’m an addict. I’m only 20 years old. I am depersonalised and feel disconnected from myself, society and everyone around me. I got mood swings and view reality and my life very different from one moment to another.
This causes me to not have a real mental groundwork to build a coherent mindset from and focus. When I was 12 I started listening to Eminem. Relapse was my first album. I listened to Relapse for a year straight. After that I listened to all his other albums and I love them all. He is my favourite rapper. Relapse is now my 4th favourite. After the classics.
The reason his music is so important to me is because it so deeply ingrained in my soul. I know all his lyrics. I feel like I know him. I’m going through the same shit. Depression, Addiction, Confusion. He grounds me.
I have been listening to him for 8 years. When I started I didn’t even know what he was saying. It’s pretty crazy how much I can relate to songs like Beautiful, Going through changes, Deja vu. It’s the first album I loved without even knowing the subject matter. Now it’s me. I have memory loss about myself. But his music brings me back. Life is crazy atm and it’s real tough. Every day I can vibe along to my favourite songs and it really helps,. It’s crazy how many of us have such a strong connection to Em and he doesn’t know about it. But in some way he does.
He knows he has a million fans who are like me. And I feel like he often talks to me as well. His fans. I’m pretty drunk idk where I’m going with this. I just wanna share my story and my love for Eminem. And to all the other people here going through a tough time, I feel like we have a certain connection. We are relating to the same person. I think I’ll get through this, I don’t need no mental support from here tho but It’s just my thoughts I wanna share. Love you all!